Give me that detonator---Mckenzie

[LARKIN VALENTINE BROWN]

It was a good kinda of day for Larkin. Well, not really. She hadn’t talked to Jay in a while. In a while meant since yesterday. They just hung out in the abandoned dorm room together and talk. She missed him a lot and wished that she could go talk to him now. But they both agreed on times to meet and she had a few hours before she could go. Getting up and stretching her back by cracking it she wandered over to her dresser and took out a shirt and shorts with a pair of leggings. All from the same clothing company that she loved. She had known some people before she was sent here that brought her the clothes and so did her foster family. They still sent her some every now and then, wishing she’d get better but also telling her that’s the best place for her. The best place was anything but here, she couldn’t help but think as she slid on the clothes and grabbed the hoodie from a stack of clean ones and pulled it on, zipping up the hoodie and then walking towards the mirror that was in the wall as she started on her light make up, eyeliner and mascara with some eyeshadow.

Next was her shoes, which came left one first then right one. After that she touched the necklace that she always wore. The tiny gold feather her mom gave her before she died. With a sigh she ran a hand through her hair and walked out of the dorm room, quietly making her way out of the building, making sure no one noticed her and started outside, the cool air brushed past her as she moved her hood so it covered her head and she stuffed her hands into her pocket, making her way into the trails. Moving through bushes before just sitting down on a tree and staring at the sky. She felt better than being trapped in there. She wanted to think, sort out her feelings for Jayson. She didn’t know what to think of him, she started picking tiny pieces off thread off of her hoodie as her mind went into overdrive, thinking about him. She couldn’t stop. She was little by little, beginning to trust him and that scared her more than anything.

Trusting people was way out of Larkin's control since it only happened twice in her life. She felt like she might lose everything if she did put her faith in one person. A sigh left her lips again as she played with her necklace, her thoughts distracting her from anything going on in her surroundings. This was the one day her paranoia didn't set it.

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word count: four something
tags: mckenzie
listening to: we are the in crowd
mood: boredd
outfit:click
other lyrics: i'm not a thief, i'm a treasure hunter by a skylit drive
made by: callie!
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[MCKENZIE LEIGHA HOPPUS]

Because the drugs never work
They're gonna give you a smirk
'Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They're gonna rip up your heads,
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

Kenzie let her back hit the trunk of the tree as her sore body slid down it.Why did she needed the alcohol?Why did she have to beg that doctor to give it to her?The only reason she wanted alcohol was because she woke up from a nightmare and the craving to just get rid of the nightmare over came her.She looked at the bottle that was in her hand and starred at it.Her eyes filled up with tears as she took a swig of the Jack Danial's and leaned her head against the trunk.The liquid burned her throat as it made it's way down her throat that she gasped as she pulled the bottle away from her lips.She shook her head as she placed the bottle next to her.No matter how much alcohol she could drink,it would never get rid of the guilt that she felt everyday.She killed her friend,an innocent guy just trying to get her friend home.But she took that innocent life away from him,maybe it was meant to happen so she could feel this pain for the rest of her life.

She examined that damage that has been done to her early this morning.She let her hands trail down her bare legs as she cringed as she felt scratch marks from the guy's fingernails.The cold weather and the salt from her skin made the scratches felt like a giant cat attacked her.Kenzie looked around quickly,before she let her hand trail up between her legs where her hand was stopped by underwear but also by hot liquid.She removed her hand and saw blood on her fingertips.She should have known,the fucker was pretty rough with her and also the throbbing between her legs should have gave away that she would bleed afterwords.She wiped her hand off in the grass,as if that would get rid of the real mess on her hands.She turned her arms over and sighed as she saw that their was bruises around her wrists.The so called Doctor pretty much held her down the whole time as he pinned her against his office door.God,she hated the staff here.Even if the Doctor was young,all the things that he asked her to do and just for her to get a fix she slept with him.She couldn't blame it all on the guy,she seduced him to get it.

Kenzie's ears perked up as she heard footsteps against the grass and they were coming close to her.She didn't move as she heard the person's back thud against the tree.She took a deep breath and slowly moved her head to the side and saw that it was a girl sitting there.She looked oddly familiar.Kenzie watched for a moment as the girl played with strings from her hoodie,she must be lost in thoughts.But Kenzie guessed it would be good to talk to someone.She stood up but soon regretted as she felt the jolt of pain between her legs and then she felt the hot liquid slid down her inner thigh down to her ankle.She cursed,and took her hand and wiped it off with her hand and ran her hand through the grass again.She put that hand in her hoodie front pocket as she made herself visible on the side of the girl. "Hello." She said,with a small smile as her blue eyes landed on the girl but she realized that her left eye hurt as she smiled.She didn't realized that she had a black eye from the incident earlier.

Words: six hundred eighty five
Notes: Hi :3 Sorry if it sucks!
Song:Teenagers-My Chemical Romace!

[LARKIN VALENTINE BROWN]

More of a action than speaking person, Larkin left the speaking part for just doctors. She almost never spoke to them either. She wasn’t like the other patients. She just wanted to be left alone and sometimes they weren’t going to do that though. She thought, they were pretty determined to get her to talk, even if that did include them showing pictures of death to her. They tried to get a reaction out of her but the only one they got were her freaking out at the pictures and crying a little because all she could see was the blood. It freaked her out and they all knew that. They all knew her problems they knew everything and they tortured her with it. Larkin, despite how much she hated them. Never fought back, only because she was scared they would take something away from her. So, she tried to be good.

Being out here alone reminded her of being...well alone. She didn’t really care all that much, she liked it better when no one was here. She had ran into people a few times but they ignored her or avoided her. She was known for her panic attacks and small freak outs which ended in her attacking guards. She was just trying to protect them. She really has no idea how to tell from reality and her delusions. A yawn passed through her lips as she raised her hand to cover her mouth, yes. No one was there but she always covered her mouth when sneezing and yawning. For a brief moment Larkin thought she heard foot steps. Of course, sometimes she didn’t believe the things she heard. Sometimes those foot steps could turn into bones cracking which turned into a full blown skeleton that freaked her out. She didn’t trust any of her senses.

Still thinking about everything she continued to pick at her hoodie’s loose threads. She wanted to close her eyes and fall asleep here, but knowing that she might over sleep and miss Jayson. Biting her lip she contemplated on getting up till someone stepped out of the woods, making poor Larkin jump out of her skin and inhale sharply. She looked up at the other girl, who had a black eye, or that’s what it looked like. She said hi and Larkin wasn’t sure how to respond. She wanted to say something. But the words had trouble rising up her throat and out of her mouth, so she just stared until she collected her thoughts together. She exhaled, once she realized she was holding her breathe. She felt like minutes had past before she opened her mouth slightly to talk. “u-uh, h-hi.” She was almost afraid to speak. Her voice was low and her tone soft. She never spoke anything louder than a whisper.

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word count: four eighty one
tags: mckenzie
listening to: we are the in crowd
mood: boredd
outfit:click
other lyrics: i'm not a thief, i'm a treasure hunter by a skylit drive
made by: callie!
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[MCKENZIE LEIGHA HOPPUS]

Because the drugs never work
They're gonna give you a smirk
'Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They're gonna rip up your heads,
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

Kenzie studied the girl for a moment.She was rather skinny,and had dark hair but something about her seemed wrong.So,she couldn't be a staff member.But as the words left Kenzie's lips in a greeting.The girl seemed spooked and she literally jumped up in the air in fright which made Kenzie take a step back.Sometimes she could never trust some of the people here because some would either just go crazy at a simple hello or some wold just end up talking to themselves.But the girl seemed stable?Well didn't all the people there look stable on the inside but they were insane on the inside?She tilted her head as she waited for any words back from the girl.Kenzie simply blinked and starred at the girl.Her stare wasn't intimadating or a glare,it was just curious.She always was interested how people reacted around her or even just around different people in general.Even though,she had to admit she was scared for the kids who got taken away by staff because she has been there and she couldn't even speak of what the staff does to the kids who won't stop screaming or crying.

She finally blinked as she heard the girl finally speak.But her words came out in almost a whisper and she stuttured.Kenzie guessed she must be one of those kids who weren't to great with people.She smiled a bit to show that she wasn't a threat. "Hey,I'm Kenzie." Kenzie said as she took a step closer but then a jet of pain came between her legs.Her eyes watered and she jolted back."Fuck." She mumbled as she closed her eyes until the pain became just a soft throb.Her eyes glanced at the girl,who was still looking at her.She probably thought Kenzie was some kind of freak or something by the way she cursed.Kenzie shook her head and realized she left the bottle behind the tree.She took a step to the right and and reached down and let her hand wrap around the neck of the bottle and pulled it up so it was visable for the girl to see. "What are you in here for?" She asked,as she took a swig of the Danials.

She was just curious on why the reason people were here.Some people were just innocent and their parents sent them here for no reason.Kenzie wished she could honestly say that she was an innocent.But she knew she had a problem because if she didn't,she wouldn't have had sex with a staff member just to get alcohol.